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I stayed off tumblr last week, spent time on twitter and tweeted about the log off protest. I went back today and queued a few things at the main and the writeblr. I've not been on DW that much either, caught up with circle once early on in the week.

I'll be away next week so I scheduled #writingwednesday for next week at the writing blogs.
The logistics of the being away are giving me anxiety though it should be fun eventually. IDK.

I found an outline/notes for a fic and managed to write it a couple of weeks back, edited and posted. I only posted because I'll miss Valentine's Day otherwise. Definitely not my best work. I can confirm that 1) if I had not made the notes I would not have been able to write the fic almost an entire year later but also 2) it never feels like good work when I write from an extensive outline. Writer problems.

I've written little. I wrote over 700 words to add to a WiP fic and decided I hate them all so...
I've been here before, the utter anxiety that overwhelms when I try to write anything or think about posting. I just have to ride it out.

(I did manage to write an accompanying haiku to the existing one I found for next Wednesday so even 13 words is something?)

I haven't even checked email for over a week aside from web work email. I'll try and check out therealljidol in case there's voting soon, I'm utterly confused about the schedule.

So I'm a hot mess right now, but maybe when I get back in a week's time things will be better.

Have a great weekend and next week everyone!

Things have been rough. I'm behind on reading. I'm struggling to keep my commitments to 3 fics per month at the professional blogs.
Last week I posted https://lmdee.wordpress.com/2018/06/13/fic-and-blog-update/ which linked to some earlier pieces of fiction and poetry and talked about my new website. The full text and links are reposted below. This week I posted, with some minor edits, an older piece of fiction.

Please do give the website a look and let me know your thoughts.

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Today is Writing Wednesday, week 2 of the month, but Writer's Block and personal issues have struck. So instead of something new, I'm revisiting some past posts that you might not have seen (or remember!)

I also want to mention that I have a new website including a Works In Progress (WiP) page, and my Tumblr now has an index/navigation page with a list of tags. I have updated my Wordpress Welcome page too.

Fiction



Fic: A Kiss Divine – a modern day romantic tale of Ariadne and Dionysus wordpress ; fic blog ; tumblr;twitter;pinterest;facebook



Fic: Too Far , a short humourous piece.
wordpress ; my original fic blog ;  tumblr;twitter;pinterest;facebook



Ficlet: Do You Believe in Magic – short humorous tale with a twist wordpress ; fic blog
tumblr;twitter;pinterest;facebook



Flash Fiction: The Dragon Savers – a children's tale where the onus is not on killing a dragon wordpress ; my fic blog ;  tumblr;twitter;pinterest;facebook



Poem: Affection – a tanka fiction blog ; wordpress ; pinterest ; twitter ; facebook ; tumblr

The Artist: What it is to live with the muse – a prose poem about the joy and pain of creativity wordpress ; writing blog ; tumblr;twitter;pinterest;facebook

Paired Poetry – 2 poems about a relationship as it grows and fails wordpress ; fic blog ;
 tumblr;twitter;pinterest;facebook

Just once a month I make a detailed personal post, and inspired by the Fluent Self blog, I call it a BAG post, where I've Been, am At, am Going. Posts may include good stuff/work/health/family/pets/creativity/general whining and I finish off by including some gifs for people to enjoy.
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NaNo - Day 7 - quick update


Unless I manage a few more words tonight my current total is 11,498, just shy of the recommended day 7 total (11,669). I expected to 'hit the wall' at about day 12 but I'm already starting to worry that I'm running out of planned scenes to write - even though I haven't actually written all the scenes I have notes for. And some scenes I have planned are "x happens but idek any details" - eg is the peril a flood or a landslide, and how does that fit in with the rest of the plot and character skills, and don't I need to foreshadow that it's a possibility beforehand...
I'm worried about the timeline and how all these disparate scenes can ever be made into a coherent narrative. I have/had plans to use the Tarot Major Arcana (which rather mirrors the Hero's Journey) to decide chapters and flow, but the event I want to use for The Devil might need to occur earlier in the novel; and there's a seasonal aspect to the timeline too, which affects where that event takes place. It's a mess. I suppose as it is a fantasy I can adjust seasons and weather to my liking but I don't want to make more work/more confusion for myself by extending summer just so the solstice occurs when I want it to!

Ugh, this sucks:
None of the scenes are coming out exactly as I want. Writing, How Does It Work. I know I'm capable of elegant prose but I'm not seeing any evidence of it here.
I know there are a billion spelling errors caused by clumsy typing in my haste. Okay, those are fixable and I'll make more errors on editing so it makes sense not to waste time and energy on that.
I'm relying, as usual, on dialogue. I know I underwrite rather than overwrite; I always have to go back and put in more detail, more descriptions of places and actions, more sensory detail. Still, I'm worried that I'm writing a lot of random dialogue rather than well drawn scenes.

But:
I've written over 11k in a week. I can't recall the last time I wrote that many words in so few days let alone on one single project.
I always feel like this, I think. Because I hate planning every detail I always end up fighting with the timeline. Because I am not a linear writer I am always having to figure out how to join up the start, end, and those random things in the middle. It's just a much bigger job with a novel than a fic.
Also Juliet started as a handwritten novella that was very badly typed up and then rewritten, and edited, and edited, and its in beta now. So I know I can polish something up. (On the other hand Juliet is years old now and I worry about ever publishing it, and what does that mean for this novel?)

So I'm somewhat swings and roundabouts with it right now. I'm accomplishing something. I'm not just sure what, yet.

I've got things to be doing but I'm having problems getting motivated. On the other hand I've walked about four miles or so today so that's something. I mentioned to my sister that I'm having problems writing.
"Yes, it's January, you say this every time," she told me.
"I've got ideas," I said. "I just can't seem to get motivated to actually write them down."
"Yes, you say this every January!" She also told me I should make a pop-up for the PC that each January says "It's January. You'll probably have ideas but not be good at writing them down!" to remind me of this fact.
Which is awesome she pays attention to know these things, and that I apparently go through this every year, so it's cyclical and will soon pass :)

As you might know, long ago, I started the 100-tales table. As usual, I haven't completed this project. So below the cut are the word prompts that I have neither written for, nor have even made notes for. (I've excluded the 'writer's choice' prompts too.) You all come up with such great ideas whenever I ask for help brainstorming so let's see what you've got this time around :D
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