random stuff

I'm almost ready to start writing again. I've been commenting on posts, and writing meta-ish stuff, and toying with ideas, and now the urge to write fiction is there again. I'm just a bit reluctant. I don't know if it's fear or anxiety. I'm not sure I know where to start. I do know it won't get done by procrastinating. At some point, words have to be written by hand or typed onscreen. The resulting fic doesn't have to be long, or good, so long as it exists.

I'm still doing better, and I'm reflecting on things I've learned and that's an ongoing process. I may talk more about it as I have more Thoughts. I've learned that it's probably best not to wait until I'm in full crisis mode to say 'things are a bit rough', and that there are people here I can trust and rely on. And I often write about loss and despair, and when I can explore my feelings about it better, I've probably gained deeper insight into these areas that will impact how I see myself and the world, and how I write about them.