Happy August - and Lammas if you're celebrating it this weekend

[meridian_rose]

With so many landcomm challenges due - and the departure of jjverse - as well as the wrap-up of smallfandomfest July was a time of endings. I'm still feeling kind of overwhelmed, actually. And you know landcomms. The very second you post the last challenge entry something else pops up. Ah well.

legendland is entering a two week end of battle hiatus which gives me some breathing space. I've got fic I want to read, as well as fic I want to finish writing. I also want to x-post some of my fic around. The problem with writing for challenges is I tend to forget to do anything beyond submit it for points and there's a few pieces I'd like to archive elsewhere.

I'm finding myself wary of doing so, though. ivanolix has posted some interesting thoughts about women, fandom, and behaviour recently, and while I recognise the issues she's raising, I still find myself somewhat trapped by them. That it's somehow not okay to "blow your own trumpet", to be proud of your accomplishments, to share them - especially when you wonder if the people you're sharing with aren't interested.

I know I worry too much over nothing. If there's something on your flist that doesn't interest you, you probably just scroll past, no harm done. But I still hesitate at the thought of self-promotion. Cara wouldn't; she's HBIC material for a reason. She's awesome and she knows it and screw anyone who thinks otherwise. I have these amazing female role models and I know I'm sabotaging myself when I left fear and doubt stop me from doing what I want to do, and yet...

So please accept my apologies if I clog up anybody's flist over the next week or so :)