fanfic:lost:dilemma

[meridian_rose]

 Antoher first season Lost short; Kate muses on the love triangle she has with Jack and Sawyer. 150 words.

Dilemma

Jack looks at me as if I’m some sort of angel. As if I’m pure and deserving of his love. I’m not. So I keep him at a distance. A distance he respects, dammit. I want him to grab me and kiss me but he won’t. Jack’s a good man. He’d never force himself upon me.
If he knew what I’d done he’d never look at me that way again. Maybe he’d never look me in the eye again. Jack wouldn’t understand.

Sawyer looks at me as if he wants me. Not to hold, but just to have, another conquest. So I keep him at a distance. He doesn’t respect it. Sawyer is not a good man. He coerced me into kissing him.
If he knew what I’d done, would it change the way he looks at me?  Sawyer’s done terrible things too. He could understand.

I have no choice.

Comments

[eternal-moonie.livejournal.com]

~lolz~ Nice Lost story hon!