When I was describing my thoughts on sex, I was approaching it from a morality point of view, having been raised in a time of rigid rules and expectations that "nice girls" waited for marriage. My feelings and behavior were emphatically not the norm among my peers. Lucrezia in "Morte d"Arthur" expresses my attitude for me. An individual's sexual orientation and behavior is, to me, as fundamental a part of them as their DNA, and to be respected and celebrated. Your desire to be asexual is part of you, and I don't find it suspect, troubling, weird or anything other than that it is what you wish to be. I like your candor and hope I may be equally honest when I tell you that my behavior, although not my inclination, is much like yours. Circumstances have arranged that I have lived an asexual life for a very, very long time. This is not my desire, but it is my reality. I don't like it. I had pretty much accepted and become numb to it (what was it that Eowyn said to Aragorn about fearing that use and old age would accustom her to living in a cage?)until that damn Francois/Cesare came along to upset my boring but familiar apple cart by igniting feelings that I had thought long ago had died. He really got in under my defenses. I am not at all sure what to do with those feelin I took down all my work from AO3 because I had just had some original poems rejected by two magazines and felt that my hit and kudo count had stalled on AO3. So I decided to commit literary suicide, if I may call it that (I am a drama queen). I was heartbroken and feeling totally inadequate as an author until you resurrected me with your note. I wonder if you realized how much it meant to me. It really resurrected me. So concerned was I about your perception that Juan may be Launcelot in "Morte" that I just posted the next chapter, just for you, which defines Juan's role in the Arthurian metaphor. He ain't Launcelot. I am going to take down "Fragility" from this web site until I can better figure out how to post it without gunking up the inboxes of people kind enough to read it. It is a pretty "magnum" opus. I just wanted you to recall it, and now that I know you do, I consider its purpose served.
Re: Francois (be still, my heart!)
An individual's sexual orientation and behavior is, to me, as fundamental a part of them as their DNA, and to be respected and celebrated. Your desire to be asexual is part of you, and I don't find it suspect, troubling, weird or anything other than that it is what you wish to be. I like your candor and hope I may be equally honest when I tell you that my behavior, although not my inclination, is much like yours. Circumstances have arranged that I have lived an asexual life for a very, very long time. This is not my desire, but it is my reality. I don't like it. I had pretty much accepted and become numb to it (what was it that Eowyn said to Aragorn about fearing that use and old age would accustom her to living in a cage?)until that damn Francois/Cesare came along to upset my boring but familiar apple cart by igniting feelings that I had thought long ago had died. He really got in under my defenses. I am not at all sure what to do with those feelin
I took down all my work from AO3 because I had just had some original poems rejected by two magazines and felt that my hit and kudo count had stalled on AO3. So I decided to commit literary suicide, if I may call it that (I am a drama queen). I was heartbroken and feeling totally inadequate as an author until you resurrected me with your note. I wonder if you realized how much it meant to me. It really resurrected me.
So concerned was I about your perception that Juan may be Launcelot in "Morte" that I just posted the next chapter, just for you, which defines Juan's role in the Arthurian metaphor. He ain't Launcelot.
I am going to take down "Fragility" from this web site until I can better figure out how to post it without gunking up the inboxes of people kind enough to read it. It is a pretty "magnum" opus. I just wanted you to recall it, and now that I know you do, I consider its purpose served.